By Gonny How often do we say to ourself: When I think of myself, I feel like I’m in my head…
We even give ourself a name.
I am…..Close. Here. Now.
And that thinking….that feels like who we are.
But it’s like watching a play and forgetting that you’re not just the main character.
You’re also the stage. The light.
The space in which the entire play unfolds.
And that is awareness. Not something you need to see, but that which sees.
Still, it’s understandable that we don’t experience it.
Because we often look for it as if it’s something.
As if awareness should arrive with golden sparks or a deep inner voice saying:
“Welcome home, you are now enlightened!”
But awareness isn’t something extra.
It’s what’s always been here.
Even now, as you read this,
you’re aware that you’re reading.
There it is. No fireworks needed.
So now another question:
Do we have to meditate to become aware of what we truly are?
Not necessarily.
Meditation is one way…a beautiful, gentle, sometimes confronting way to recognize that inner space again.
But awakening is not reserved for those sitting on a cushion.
A child lost in play,
a mother feeding her baby,
someone touched by music
or the sun on their face….
these are moments where awareness quietly remembers it is alive.
Not through effort.
But through presence.
And what if you keep thinking: I will do it, I will try to understand it, I will go for it …..but you resist…or postpone it to later….?
Well, that too is the ego’s trick.
It keeps your awareness just out of reach,
like a carrot dangling in front of a donkey.
Always almost there… but never here.
But you’re already here.
Even the thought that you’re not feeling your awareness
is happening within that awareness.
You might ask:
How for heaven’s sake, can I become aware that I’m the Son of God?
Well… maybe it starts with a smile at that “for heaven’s sake”. 
Because what if Heaven is just this moment
this breath,
this writing,
this questioning?
What if it’s not about finding…
but about stopping the search?
The Son of God is not a role to play, not a title to earn.
It is your nature. Like a sunbeam doesn’t need to learn that it is light.
So how do you remember that?
Not through a course in achievement, but by gently allowing it in:
“Maybe it’s true. Maybe I am that. Even if I don’t feel it. Even if my thoughts say no. Maybe… that knowing is already there, behind the noise.”
And you know what?
The fact that we’re even asking this question
means we already know….deep down.
Because only Awareness asks about Itself.
Let it be soft.
Let it be now.
Not later.
With love and light,
G.